My Best Friend

The title really doesn't come close to what Jake was to me. He is gone and my heart is broken. Memories just keep flooding back. So many things he did and all the love he gave over 8 great years. This is one of my favorite pictures of him. He was full of pride!

* I picked him in June 1998. There were 2 puppies I could pick from. One was a calm puppy who just hung out and didn't care what happened around him. The other was "Top Dog" and thought he was bigger then the other adult dogs. He would run around, jump and bark at the other big dogs. I picked him. He was named Jake on our way home. I wanted Max but David really wanted to name him Jake. It was the perfect fit for a great dog.
* There was only 1 1/2 years that I worked full time. So I spent most of his 8 years with him. He was my saviour while on bedrest with Emma. Without him my days would have been long. He was my friend that I could talk to and cry to. He listened and just loved me. When we brought Emma home he instintly became her guardian. He truly loved her.






* When we brought Maggie home we thought he would be jealous that a puppy came into the house. I felt guilty because I didn't want him to think he wasn't enough. He took to her and loved her right away. They became fast friends. Maggie is hurting right now and doesn't know what to do with herself. Much like me.



* Then came Timmy or should I say my 6 weeks hospital stay. While there Emma was able to visit almost everyday, but my puppies of course couldn't. David brought me a picture of them. I missed Jake so much. I longed to pet his soft fur and smell his stinky breath. God I loved that dog.


* When we got home with Timmy, Jake accepted him as his second child. This dog just loved his kids.




There are so many memories that just flood back to me. The one that breaks my heart is of last night. It really shouldn't though. It was the look of peace after he was gone. I haven't sobbed that hard in a very long time. Actually, I can't stop crying. My heart hurts right now. I know he is in a better place, but when I I saw how peaceful and puppylike he looked, I longed for him to wake up and come home. I just want him home with me. His head and ears were so soft last night. He was so loved by so many. The staff had tears and our vet had tears. I know it was hard for her also. She did everything to help us with him. I know that I exhausted all the options that I had and I just couldn't put him through more. It was time to honor him and let him gone.

I pray that my beliefs that I grew up with about heaven really does exist. I need to see him again when I get there. I need him to lick my face, give me his paw and let me spoil him all over again.

Jake, my love
I can't ever thank you for all the love you have give us. I pray you know how much you were loved by everyone that met you. You touch a special place in everyone's heart. We will never be the same and we are so much better for loving you. Run and play the way you used to. Find Aunt Jean and give her a big lick from me.
Hugs ad kisses to you Jake. I will never be the same without you.
Your Mommy

Here are a few of my puppy:





Emma made Jake into an elephant. He was such a good support!

Our last few minutes with Jake.



Goodnight my sweet Jake. I will never stop loving you.